Inevitable?

When we go to our weekly ultrasounds the first thing they always check is my cervix and placenta.  The cervix so far has always looked good (thank goodness we don't have that problem!) but the placenta hasn't moved.  It's still a previa (which means that it's smack dab over my cervix).  This is bad news to me because if it stays that way I'll have to have a c-section.  I've known this since I found out about the previa 5 weeks ago but I also knew that it's likely to move so I wasn't too concerned.

Now with the IUGR issue however, it's a different story.  The previa hasn't moved (though it still could) but if we bring early delivery into the equation then a c-section is almost inevitable.  At our appointment last Friday I asked the tech right away if the previa was gone and she said no...then I asked her if it even mattered anymore or was I going to end up with a c-section anyway and she basically confirmed that yes, I'd need the surgery to get these babies out.

I'm really bummed about this.  I loved being able to go into spontaneous labor with Maia.  I felt like I was doing something - like I was really involved in the whole process and now this time I won't get to experience that.  All things considered I know it's a stupid thing to be sad about since our first priority is obviously healthy babies but if these are our last kids it just bums me out that I won't get to experience real labor again.  At least though I'll get 8 weeks paid at work instead of 6!

We have an OB appointment tomorrow.  I'm very interested to see what he'll say about our situation considering we haven't seen him since before we were diagnosed.  We also have our doppler on Thursday so it's a busy week.